*I am honored to host a series of guest posts by mothers on dealing with the loss of our little ones during pregnancy or shortly after. Each mother has written a summary of their journey and then a letter to the baby they lost. I have found this to be a really healing part of my journey and would recommend that any mother who has lost a baby write a letter full of those words she wanted to express, but never got the chance.*
Bethany’s Journey:
I am 29 and have three boys (7,6,4). We found out around Mothers Day this year that we were expecting our 4th. We were super excited but nervous at the same time due to a huge move to Ohio from Georgia happening the end of May. Everything was going fine until week 16 when we went in for a routine check up to find our precious baby no longer had a heartbeat. A huge loss to experience without the love and support of family and friends close by.
Our sweet baby,
As I write this letter I would be coming up on week 27. We would know your gender, we would be getting close to picking out your name, decorating a nursery just for you, and anticipating all the joy that comes with welcoming a new member of the family into the world. However, I sit here wondering. Wondering what you would look like, wondering what we would have named you, wondering if you were going to come early and be a special Christmas present or hold out and be a New Years baby! But one thing I don’t wonder is where you are. What joy and hope we have in knowing you are playing with Jesus and one day, we will meet you!!
You are our 4th child. Even though we never got to meet you, we still consider you a blessing from The Lord and call you our child. I was blessed and honored to be your mom here on earth, even if it was only for 16 weeks while you grew in my womb.
Not a day goes by that I don’t think about you and wonder what our family would have been like with you here. You are thought of often and loved so much. You are loved by us, your 3 big brothers, your GG and Papi, your Nana and Pops, your aunts and uncles, and your 4 cousins (all boys!!). We look forward to meeting you 🙂 Until then, enjoy your time with Jesus!! It takes some people 70+ years to walk the streets of gold with Jesus, but you my sweet angel, you beat us all to Him!
Love forever and always,
Your Mom
*..and to think, when your eyes opened for the very first time, you saw the face of Jesus*
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